The time is NEAR!

I can’t believe that this could be is my last blog post before my new little bundle enters the world.  I went in for a doctor’s appointment today at 40 weeks, 2 days, and we found out that my cervix is ready and that I’m a good candidate for induction.  I wanted to wait and see if the labor would start naturally, but Dan’s parents are coming into town and leaving on Monday (which is when the Dr. would recommend that I induce at the latest) and since my cervix is ready, that coupled with the inlaw’s visit is what I based my decision on.  I’m trying not to feel guilty about it or over-analyz it.  I’ve already received some comments that have rubbed me the wrong way.  I know everyone has their opinions on inductions, but its a personal decision and I feel that we’re making the right one.  If my cervix wasn’t ready for it, and if I wasn’t past my due date, then it wouldn’t be a good option for me.  I talked about this some here.

Parker will be staying with his buddy Campen and parents Ben and Gracile while we’re in the hospital.  Campen and Parker have had many playdates and are only three weeks apart in age.  I know he’s going to have a blast over there with his buddy, playing with all his toys and charming his way into special treatments. We are so very thankful to Ben and Gracile for helping us with this! Lizzie (our sheltie-shepard rescue pup)will be staying with her new boyfriend Dawson, (which ironically is the name of one of my OB doctors) at Aunt Danielle’s house.  She’ll be well taken care of and have a fun playmate that has a huge back yard for her to roam free and chase squirrels.  See what great parents we are?

My Grandmother and Dan were both in the delivery room when Parker was born, and it was great to have both of them to encourage me and help comfort me.  This time, my Mom and Dan will be in the room for Mason’s delivery, and I’m excited that she will be able to experience this with us.

It is in fact, all a little bitter sweet.  We’re so prepared with everything that Mason will need right when he comes home.  The diapers and clothes are washed, drawers and baskets stocked, the fully charged batteries are in the bouncy seat and swings, preparations are made for Parker and our hospital bags are packed.  I’m a planner, so there wasn’t a doubt that I would have all my ducks in a row way before it was time.  I haven’t however, seemed to prepare myself emotionally for a new baby.  I mean, Parker is my baby. RIGHT?  Didn’t I JUST bring him home from the hospital?  I’m tearing up as I type…. How can I possibly love another little baby boy as much as I love my sweet Parker?  I KNOW I will.  I just know it, but it’s really hard for me to grasp, if I’m being perfectly honest.  I have this gut wrenching feeling that I’m not going to be able to give Parker the love and attention that he deserves with another baby around.  That really works at my insides.  I’ve really been enjoying his fun little personality lately too.  He always finds a way to make me and his daddy smile.  He’s saying new words.  He randomly blows me kisses.  He does this thing with fingers and strums his lips like a guitar while he laughs.  His happiness is so contagious.    I’ve heard that God will make your love multiply when you have kids, and I’m just trusting that is the case.  If God has enough love to share with all of his children, then I am confident that he will equip me with what I need to be a good loving mother to both of my boys.  I’m apprehensive…yet very excited about this new chapter in our life.  A life that includes my little family of four.  I wouldn’t ask for it any other way.

3 thoughts on “The time is NEAR!

  1. You are a wonderful mommy! I’m sure you’ll be just fine, it must seem a little overwhelming now. Take a deep breathe have some herbal tea and just relax.
    Mason’s nursery looks wonderful and I’m so proud of you for being so organized and having everything ready! Know that I’m always here for you, I’m only a phone call away even if its in the middle of the night!
    Love ya lil’ sis,
    Lisa

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  2. Had to leave this little note… I had the same fear when my second child made her way into the world. Yes, God does multiply your love for your children, but He does more than that. If you seek His will for yours and your childrens’ lives, He allows you to “redeem the time”. Even though your days will be taken up with diaper changes and breast/bottle feedings, non-stop laundry and dishes, doc appts for both you and baby, somehow, some way, you figure out that you are able to squeeze it all in. I’m working on my fourth child and I am so looking forward to the craziness that a baby brings… (it’s already crazy)…

    Don’t stress over whether there is enough love, because there is more than enough, both of love and time. Christ is the perfect example for mothers; you stated that in your post, how if He can love all His children equally, then so can we. This is true. It’s an unending, unconditional and perfect love. If you know the love of God, then you know how to be the greatest mother.
    Again, so excited and happy for you. Good luck and God bless.

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  3. This post almost made me cry! I’m so happy for you and Dan. I agree with Carolyn. I wondered how I could ever love another child as much as my first and yet when he was born, I wondered how I could ever doubt I could love him any less. We love you guys, and can’t wait to meet baby Mason!

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