So, I may begin to sound like a bit of a complainer to my readers, and I’m sorry for that. However, this blog is used as my outlet to vent frustrations too, so with that in mind, I continue to type my complaints. Can I just say on the record that breastfeeding sucks? No pun intended, but I’m going on three weeks now, and my boobs are still sore! I’ve heard that it gets easier, and I keep telling myself “You can do this, you can hold out just a little bit longer”. However, I’m starting not to believe those inner words of encouragement. I’m still feeding him every 2-3hrs. At night I set my alarm for four hours until the next feeding, but it never fails…he always wakes me up at two and a half hours. I’ve tried all of the lotions, shields, shells warm compress, cold compress, ibuprofen…just about everything except for supplementing with formula. A few days ago I gave in and gave him a bottle of pumped breast milk. It was great that he was able to suck it down in less than a minute and give my breast a rest, however it took me over three days to pump that much…so it’s not something that I can do often.
Whoever said that if you’re nursing correctly, then it’s not suppose to hurt, is a BIG FAT LIAR. I’ve read breastfeeding books, attended classes, met with a lactation consutlant, called the lactation support line a few times and I think I’m pretty clear on the proper “technique”. It’s just crazy to me that when I mention it to a lactation consultant (aka breastfeeding nazi) my struggles, they automatically assume that I don’t have the “proper latch”. I’ve heard that some people have more sensitivity in their breast than others, so apparently I’m either REALLY sensitive, or a big baby about the whole thing.
So why do I continue to do it? Well, after taming his flailing arms threatening to scratch or smack me, and after the initial pain of latching on has stopped, it’s not quite as bad. I have a great time bonding with my son while I nurse too. The main reason why I am so determined to breastfeed is because I want to give him the absolute best nutrition for his growing body. My husband has Crohn’s disease, and even though it’s not proven that breastfeeding will prevent Crohn’s, it has been shown in studies that babies who are brestfed are at a lesser risk for developing Crohn’s disease as well as other digestive diseases later in life. So, with that in mind…I’m going to power through this challenge and make it my mission to be successful at it! I have noticed that it has gotten easier, so I’m hoping that in the coming days (not weeks!) that it’ll get increasingly easier and I will feel good about bonding with my son. Hopefully I will have a good report in a few weeks and I’ll be just as happy while breastfeeding as the fairytale image above.