I’ve certainly been going crazy with my “nesting” lately, but I think what I’ve been really doing is turning into a Momzilla. I don’t know exactly how it happened. It started with wanting the perfect nursery and then moved on to wanting to organize every square inch of our house. Last night we came home from small group and insisted that Dan help me take everything out of the pantry to check for expired food, then I proceeded to use my p-touch labeler to organize and label every single shelf and strategically place everything in the pantry in it’s new “home”. What is wrong with me? I know that pregnancy hormones have weird effects on women, but geez! What happened to my Sunday nights consisting of relaxing on the sofa with a good dose of Desperate Housewives on the tube?
Then I have an Aunt that has graciously decided to throw me a shower and I obsess about the details of whether or not she got the invites out in enough time, if they will look ok, and if she needs help etc. It’s so ridiculous. I’m driving her crazy and I don’t blame her. I wouldn’t want to throw me a shower. The weekends which are meant to at least have one Sabbath day has turned into seeing how much I can check off of my laundry list baby preparation antics. I think the perfectionist in me has really gotten out of control and I need to tame it. I have read everything from my pregnancy magazines to breastfeeding to childbirth preparation. The more I read the more anxiety I get that I will not get it all right. I have to remember that it’s okay if I don’t get breastfeeding right the first time, it’s okay if I don’t know everything about babies when Parker comes. Many women have done this before…some of which I might add, with far worse circumstances. So why am I so worried??!! I just need to give it to God. I have prayed about my anxieties and I have thanked him for my many blessings. I know he is taking care of me and won’t let me fail. I just have to trust in him and take deep breaths…. deep breaths….Prenatal yoga every week should help with this too!
So, speaking of laundry list of baby preparation… I believe we are done with the baby’s room! I’ll let you be the judge: