Turns out little squiggles didn’t make it. We thought we were at 7 weeks last week when we went to the doctor. The ultrasound showed that we were at 5 weeks. Yesterday we went back for a second ultrasound, and the gestational sac was still at 5 weeks without a heartbeat. Although are hearts are broken and it saddens us deeply, I have found comfort through bonding with my husband, prayer and through reading scripture. Yesterday I sat outside feeling the warmth of the sun, and the cool breeze, I read 2 Corinthians 1:3-7 where Paul writes:
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.
In that scripture I find peace in knowing that Jesus understands our suffering and that he provides us comfort so that we can help others find comfort through him (when others go through situations such as this). We have had such an outpouring of support from friends and family and I am so thankful for that. I also am hopeful that one day in God’s timing (NOT MINE) that he will provide us with a child.